Long time no see

Well... It's been a while since I've graced this page with an update... Life seems almost the same... Almost... Was quasi happy by myself until I met him... Now I can't get him out of my mind... Not good see...Now I have a fear of loneliness and the wanting of being loved... And by my experiences love never reaches me when I want it... It comes to me when I'm not even looking... Other than that things are pretty much the same... In a job that no longer makes me happy but then again I don't know what job would make me happy... I am indecisive by nature... By far books have been my main happiness for quite a while... I should either study to be a librarian or just write a fucking book and get it over with...What to do? That is my true dilemma...

P.S. By the way... The excessive usage of "..." is because this wonderfully fucked up work laptop I'm using has the comma button broken. It's just there looking pretty on the keyboard.