Long Time No Write

Its been a while... The pain is not as intense as the beginning, mostly due to the revelation. But it is still there, like a scream muffled by a pillow...Sometimes I feel it, circling in the border of my reality, wanting to come back and haunt me. Gladly, it cannot approach me anymore... I am no longer within reach...Time heals all things, eventually...But for me, it is the truth that always sets me free... Even when it can kill me. I sometimes hate myself for sounding so pathetic (mind you that only happens when I write... I usually say nothing of how I feel to other people). Here does not count either, since hardly any of the people I know bother using this type of blog anymore. They are still a few, who crusade thru here once in a while. I am slowly discovering that I do not have friends...Friends in the way that call you to hang out. Yes I have friends to hang out with... But they don't really call me to do that. It is I who is calling them. There I go again, sounding miserable. When truthfully I am not. I am just lonely. This will take some time to get use too. For now, somebody hit me. Hard. I want to wake up, but I don't seem to know how.

Official Day of Turkey Gore!

And today commences the tournament of who can eat more turkey! I will post photos of such an event, and of my attire for today. Attire is code word for "clothes that camouflage the stuffing I'm going to get today"

Pain

Just when you think that things are getting better...Just when you think you had a happy day... In comes the pain, unannounced, like a panther hunting its pray...It catches you... And you can feel out of breath... And you can hear your heart beating strongly, as if it would burts on any moment...Then starts the chest pain...Everytime you try to draw breath, less air seem to come to every effort...And then it stops, as fast as it started...But you will remember for the next few days...How pain took hold of you...And you weren't prepared for it...

Michelle Needs

Michelle needs to visit one of those awful liberal indoctrination camps known as art museums. (I had no idea that awful, indoctrination and camp could be in the same sentence with art)

Michelle needs her own reality show. (Hell no)

MICHELLE NEEDS YOUR HELP! (do I?)

Michelle needs a home that can accept her limitations as being mildly mentally retarded and will help to build her self-esteem. (well what do you know, I didn't know I was mildly mentally retarded, that explains quite a few things.)

Michelle needs to get the 2004 candidate names to Jeff so that the election may proceed. (I rather not, a little bit of caos before an election, is always fun)

Michelle Needs A Car (uhhhh, i want the honda element, puleaseeeeeeeeee)

Michelle needs to beef up her breakfast of oatmeal made with water by adding protein and fruit. (y'all making me hungry)

Everything around here is Michelle needs this, and Michelle needs that! (Well, I do need it!!)

Michelle needs to learn to be more careful with her Voodoo (Ahhh, I botched it again!? Dammit!)

So all Michelle needs is to resist extracting the newline in the first place instead of extracting it and then stripping it. (i have no idea of what your talking about)

Michelle needs a family that will be patient, consistent, kind, loving, and have experience with developmentally disabled children. (another problem???)

Michelle needs to spend some of her newly acquired wealth on attending a USGA rules seminar or two. (no problem, what is a USGA?)

And besides, Michelle needs another job so I can clear my conscience for possibly messing up her career. (hmmmm, what did you do????)

Still, for all her power, Michelle needs more to compete with the big boys. (bring them ON!!)

Michelle needs to exercise her right to shut the fuck up. (Hey, don't tell me when to shut up!!)

Michelle needs the PGA and LPGA players to elevate her game, the father says. (pga?.... lpga?.... npi)

Kim thinks that Michelle needs to tell Chappelle. (uh,right... Chappelle who?)

What Michelle needs to do is win. (hell yeah!)

Michelle needs every advantage possible to attain this goal. (quite possibly, whatever that goal is)

What the players I think are really saying and all recognize is that Michelle needs to gain experience. (experiene I already have, darling!)

Michelle needs to do more than glare and go "you gotta problem with that?" ... (well do you?)


Got this idea from Diana who in turn got from Kayser. So you're supposed to go to Google and type "your name needs". And be surprised by the things google shows you 'need'. And then share them.

Music

Currently listening to in my (currently mine, 'cause it's my mom's, but she is not using it) memory stick mp3 player:
Hombre-M.I.A
Oh My Gosh-Basement Jaxx
Let Go-Frou Frou
Japon-Residente Calle 13
Se vale to'-Residente Calle 13
Scientist-Coldplay
Trouble- "
Yellow- "
Un Pato-Natalia Lafourcade
Bring it On-Seal
Doo Wop (That Thing)-Lauryn Hill
Romeo y Julieta-Jarabe de Palo
Morena-Vikter Duplaix
Hero-Nickelback
Here-VAST
I'm Dying- "
Touched- "
Bitter Sweet Simphomy-The Verve
Take Me Out-Franz Ferdinand
Record of Loddos War Intro
Wake Up-Rage Agaisnt the Machine
Drops of Jupiter-Train
Am Afraid of Americans-David Bowie & Trent Reznor
Deliver Me-Sarah Brightman
FCC Song-Eric Idle
Feelin' Love-Paula Cole
Song 2-Blur
Heavy-Collective Soul
Converting Vegetarians-Infected Mushroom

those of you that think my music selection needs more interesting music, are welcome to send some my way, well, to my email, that is: mika.flores@gmail.com :D